15 weeks

Hello baby! It's been so long and I am so sorry but it is a beautiful day outside today (sunny and 63!) and I am feeling inspired! According to all of my online helpful hints you are now about 4 inches long and weigh about 1/2 an ounce. About the size of a peach. Yet I haven't felt you move in there yet. I keep thinking I feel slight flickerings but nothing for sure.

Where are you in there?

I am feeling so much better- no nausea at all now and my energy is back, except for the occasional afternoon nap I've been taking while Big Sis Ellie naps too. Last week I scheduled "The Big Ultrasound" where we not only find out how perfect you are, but whether or not you'll be perfect in pink or blue! Since we found out about you Daddy has wanted to know whether you are a boy or girl but I have been wanting to keep it a secret up until the very moment we meet you. But I have secretly decided that since Daddy can only be involved minimally right now while you are still safe in my tummy that letting him find out if you are a boy or girl is the best gift i can give him. He is anxious to plan your room (with Ellie or Andrew?), to pick a name, to buy new clothes. And I cannot refuse him because you are our last baby gift and I want Daddy to be as involved as happy with you as I already am. So kick me and let me know you approve!

The week of April 12th is our big appointment so hopefully you'll cooperate and let us know who you are in there! I have thought from the beginning that you a little boy. I see 2 boys in our family in years down the road. I see all of Andrew's favorite old clothes being worn again and I can see the sweet blue Winnie the Pooh bedding we have back in the crib that all of our children have used. But I am also confused because this pregnancy is so much more like Ellie's went- sick at night, less energetic, craving apples and chocolate. So we will see and I promise to love you either way.

Another interesting tidbit for you sweet one: at my last appointment with the doctor that is taking care of us both until you arrive she asked me to narrow down when we wanted to deliver you- essentially asking my to choose your birthday! Let me explain a little about this. Big brother Andrew came into this world in a rough way. Mommy was in labor with him when things went very wrong and we both, Andrew and I, were not doing so well. They pulled us into an emergency operating room where Mommy was put to sleep and they helped get Andrew out of my tummy before we could both get worse. That operation is what's known as a c section and once a Mommy has one of those chances are that all of that Mommy's other babies will be born the same way. I very much wanted to have all of my kids born "the natural" way but when considering my silly wants versus what would be safest for us all, Ellie was born via c section too. Which makes you our c section number three.

Now, when I saw our doctor- Dr. Alexander- she said she wanted you to be born about a week before your due date which is August 31st. She asked me if I has a date in mind and I said yes, I did. And I chose August 25th because your Daddy and I both were born on the 25th (he in December and mine in June), your brother was born on the 20th and your sister was born on the 5th. In order to make things "even" I was hoping for a date that was either a 5th, 20th or 25th and 25th it is! Unfortunately after choosing that date I found it that it is also your big brother's first day of FIRST GRADE and that I will be missing it! I am so so sad about this baby, but I know that in the long run he won't remember and you will end up with a birth date just like all of ours!

So that is all the news! 15 weeks along, feeling good and hoping to get great new pictures of you soon. Keep growing in there, know that we all love you very much (Andrew likes to kiss my belly at night and say "Goodnight Midgie") and Mommy will hopefully be able to write more memories for you soon! I love you little one!